The Invisible Woman

Good intentions? Only with a new heart!

You've heard and read so many messages about having good intentions in your heart but, how are you supposed have good intentions without a new heart? It's hard isn't it?

When pleasing God and worrying about what He thinks of you isn't your priority, your intentions start changing...

For example: A person who wants to be rich and prosper, do you think God is going to let that happen if it's not to please His name? Or the wife who wants her husband back, she fights and goes regularly to church but, she's only thinking about HER OWN well being. She isn't worried about her husband's soul. Or, the assistant who's dream is to marry a pastor but it's only to have a great love life or a position in the church. Is her dream to serve on the altar or be served by the altar?

The new heart has no personal desires. It is pure and free from every evil influence, it doesn't  judge and does not allow resentment inside. If you do not have this new heart, you can't seem to hold a communion with God, one hour your good and the other you feel bad, you don't keep your purposes of faith with Him, you need to seek with all your strength. Below is a purpose that I learned a long time ago, it helped me a lot and I think I can help you! It's a prayer preferably done in the morning because it's a bigger sacrifice with three purposes:

1 - Talk to God about what you do (the attitudes you take - things that perhaps nobody knows that you do) on that day, what you know displeased Him. 2 - Talk to God about what you said (Talked about something wrong a person did or a gossip, a lie, a dirty word, if you responded with defiance or ignorance to someone), which of course displeased God. 3 - Talk to God about what you thought (of leaving the church, to give up everything, you've tried so many times and it seems things will never change, etc..) that displeased Him.

After this purpose, man! You must repent, tell God that you must change and that without His help you can't, this my friend has to be from the bottom of your soul, your heart! Your eternal life depends on it! Perhaps because you do not live in sin, you think that nothing needs to change and this has prevented you from receiving this spiritual transplant. And of course after all, begin to monitor and implement the necessary changes! This requires a daily effort from you!

And how do you know if you've had this transformation? Evaluate your innerself, which voice you've obeyed, and be assured you'll remember that the old heart and old self with contempt. You'll never remember your recent actions with joy, nevertheless, your glory is to have known God, and your past will serve only as a testimony, from the difference that is or will be inside of you!

"Then shall ye remember your evil ways and your doings that were not good, you shall loathe yourselves because of your iniquities and your abominations." (Ezekiel 36:31)

Don't leave for later something that is so important: a new heart! And you shouldn't use excuses as to why you can't have this because of problems, bad testimonies you see and such. It's only your personal responsibility.

Cast away from you all the transgressions which you have committed, and get yourselves a new heart and a new spirit. For why should you die, O house of Israel? ³² For I have no pleasure in the death of one who dies,” says the Lord GOD. “Therefore turn and live!” (Ezekiel 18:31-32) 

The first love and the imbalance

When I got freed and then was baptized in the Holy Spirit, a great love for souls was born within me. There was a transformation inside of me, I was in awe at what God was doing in my life. I was so marveled that I had an imbalance.

At 13 years old, before knowing the Lord Jesus, I had problems in school and stopped studying twice. And then the imbalance came this time of always wanting to be at the church helping and I stopped studying once again. I wanted to be in church every day. In that time I was part of the youth group. I evangelized, cleaned, participated of the services... I even took my backpack with food to eat, this was my first love.

Only now do I understand that I didn't do the right thing. I ended up giving a bad testimony to my family back then. Even now, I have dificulties just because I stopped studying. I know that it's really important to be in that faith, the first love, but we need to have a balance. This is also necessary for those who want to serve God on the altar. I have dealt with this imbalance and its revolting! I've been in the USA 3 years and had to learn spanish when i first got here... I have to confess - it was very difficult. I had a lot of trouble learning this new language.

The worst part for me was when we had meetings and people came up to me for counseling, back then we didn't have many assistants, and several times the people came to me crying and I understood nothing. It was very frustrating for me, those were horrible moments. I felt like nothing because I couldn't speak or understand them. But with struggles and perseverance I learned. I still regret having stopped studying in that time though. Now I am learning english, because in this moment I'm involved with the youth group.

There are days I feel like I'm going crazy... studying, struggling to learn, and also sacrificing half of my day to go to school. Sometimes I feel like quitting, those thoughts come "you have so many things to do in the church and you're here in school wasting time." I then remember the reason why I have to understand the youth, I need to help them. And once again I'm in this situation.

If I didn't have this imbalance in the past, I wouldn't have to be, at 27 years of age, in school. And the worst thing is knowing that the work of God needs women and men of God that know another language. Sometimes we have a church and no one who speaks the main language. That's why we need to have a balance. If you have the desire to do the work of God, don't limit yourself. As of now as a youth, assistant, etc, finish your schooling, try to learn as much as possible because in the future it will be really useful. This as well is doing the work of God.

God wants to use us in an extraordinary way... But we cannot limit ourselves. Take advantage of the opportunites now so that you won't regret it later.